It has been a little over two and a half years since you left us. Please know that you are sorely missed and I cry for you often. Next month you would have turned 25 years old. You would be a graduate of Rutgers University, just like your Mom, and now your brother will be walking down the aisle at graduation next year for both you and himself. I know you suffered several mental illnesses and they got the best of you; you had a manic episode. You left the trail on your computer so we would find out where you went, you left your car running and hazard lights on so that you would be found and I would not have to search until the end of time to find you. That is what I told you after you went to New York to find a cliff to jump off of. I know you did not like therapy or taking medication. I did not know that you told your therapist that you were moving to California and stopped seeing him. I did not know that you quit work, I did not know that you told your virtual friends you were no longer going to be playing video games, I did not know that you were not going to classes.....if I knew then of what I know now, I may have picked up signs as to what you were going to do. You were my first baby and you and/or I may not have made it through delivery, but we both did. The hospital room was filled with doctors as with every contraction your heart started beating slower. But you and I did it and as the first baby you were so very much spoiled. You not being here now makes my heart ache. I love you. I wish you did not leave us. I will be wondering all my life as to why you did what you did. I still love you to the moon and back. I will never stop loving and missing you.
I am so sorry for your loss of Brandon. I pray that God's peace that passes human understanding will be upon you. May this candle symbolize the light of God shining from Brandon as he is embraced in the arms of Jesus, our Lord and Savior. Please know that you are being prayed for with love and empathy. God bless you, Deb Ploe
Brandon our dear son you are home now. Your journey has taken you many miles and many years but you have now reached your destination and I hope you are at peace now. Know that we love you unconditionally and will never blame you for the decision you made. Know that your presence in our daily life will be so sorely missed and that our love for you will never fade.
Your light will forever shine in our hearts and our memories of you will never fade. Your are, and always will be loved unconditionally and will be missed more than you could ever know; my first born, my child, my Brandon.